- Bachelor Former student Ryan Sutter posted on Instagram in May about his wife Trista’s absence, making his followers think she died or their relationship ended
- The reality TV star explained that he shared the messages so his wife could see when she regained access to social media after being away for an unidentified experience.
- Ryan said on the June 17 episode of The Most Dramatic Podcast Ever with Chris Harrison that “If something really, really bad happened in my life, I wouldn’t tell anyone.”
Ryan Sutter caused a stir last month with several cryptic Instagram posts about his wife Trista Sutter that led fans to think she was dead or the couple was on the rocks.
Ryan, 49, admitted during the June 17 episode of The Most Dramatic Podcast Ever with Chris Harrison that while he and Trista, 51, had their challenges over the past school year, he didn’t want to imply anything negative with his social media posts in May.
“I’ll go months without a message, and then all of a sudden I’ll be in the mood and I’ll send something,” Ryan told Harrison, 52. “And it was a special thing that Trista was doing, and it was the end of the school year. It’s been a long year for us, with moves and lots to do. So whatever was the culmination of everything that happened, and I was in that kind of place, so I sent that.
The Sutters moved to Denver to “focus fully on our kids,” Ryan said. “They are my representation of who I am and who I want them to be. And I just want to give them everything I can at this point in their lives to prepare them to be successful, caring, friendly, empathetic, intelligent young people. And that’s why, you know, Trista and I moved to Denver.
THE Bachelor one alumnus added that he felt some pressure as a public figure to let people into his life. “I feel like I have some responsibility as someone that people know a little bit about, to share some of that and let it be known, hey. I also face loneliness. I’m also dealing with health issues,” Ryan told the ex-Bachelor host.
But if something was wrong with him or Trista, Ryan wouldn’t have aired their dirty laundry online.
“If something really, really bad happened in my life, I wouldn’t tell anyone,” Ryan said. “That’s the other side of me that you probably know is that most of my personal life stays pretty personal.”
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Ryan continued to explain that his “view of social media is twofold.”
“I mainly only use Instagram because I like photos, and I like to look back on my life and reflect on the topic of fatherhood, reflect on my children when they were younger,” he said . “And the written part just reminds me of the emotional states I was in at those particular moments.”
Suspicions began when Ryan posted on Instagram on May 12 how he wished Trista could be with him and their children Maxwell, 15, and Blakesley, 16, on Mother’s Day.
“Sometimes being a mom means letting go, granting independence, and boosting your courageous spirit,” Ryan wrote. “Sometimes it is necessary to exemplify the characteristics you preach – to do rather than say. Sometimes you have to be uncomfortable and scared to show them that it’s okay to be uncomfortable and scared. Sometimes you have to leave so they know that you will come back, that your love is limited neither by distance, nor by difficulties, nor by time.
Then, on May 17, Ryan explained that he wished he could talk to Trista, but he knew she needed some time off to “rediscover herself.”
“I would really like to hear your voice – just for a minute,” he posted on Instagram. “So many times I called without much to say, not realizing how lucky I was or how much of an opportunity I would miss if it disappeared.”
Ryan told Harrison that commenters started telling him to “stop it with the drama.”
“It was crazy,” the reality star added.
When Trista regained access to social media, she explained on Instagram that she was given “an opportunity for perspective and personal growth” that Ryan couldn’t say much about.
“He owes no one an explanation nor does he need permission to post what he wants to post and share what he wants to share 💯,” she wrote on May 25. “If you want to know the rest of the story, I will share in due time.”
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The family then took a trip together to Mexico and Trista and Ryan shared photos from the trip.
“We do our best – to do and be good, to live and treat others well,” the two wrote on Instagram on May 29. “We make decisions without knowing the outcome but hoping that we are on the right track – hoping that the issues are resolved.” will receive a response in time. We try to be a positive example, to care, to trust the process, and to trust that others will believe that our intention is not malicious, misguided, or unkind.
Ryan said above The Most Dramatic Podcast Ever that he finds himself “taking every opportunity” to watch his children “do the things they love to do.”
“And, like this trip to Mexico, just hanging out with them and snorkeling and, you know, I’d be dead tired from surfing or something, and Blake would want to go out and go snorkeling. snorkelling,” Ryan said. “And you’re like, oh, yeah, let’s do it, let’s do it. Because in the back of your mind, you know your opportunities to do this are limited as they continue to grow and become more independent.
Ryan called Trista “the most thoughtful, caring person” and said they remained focused on raising their children.
“That’s been the real goal,” he said. “It’s not necessarily about keeping them safe, you know, making sure they don’t drown and, you know, cracking their heads open. It’s basically about preparing them to be competent young adults and confident people.